Whoa.. I know.. Am I still alive? Does this blog still exist?
The answer is yes to both, but I've had a hard time writing this post for the past week and a half.
I have opened up at least four different drafts in Blogger composing this, but nothing seems right enough to publish. But I'm just letting this one out.
I felt like I owed you that. You.. whoever still follows and reads this blog after my abandonment.
I promise I'm back. Slowly.
You see, this year - and especially the last month - has been one of the hardest things I've put myself through. I joined a sorority, became an RA, took on positions in my sorority, am temporarily disaffiliating to become a recruitment counselor for Panhellenic, applied to internships, managed six classes, tried to figure out how I would make this summer work, tried to branch out and meet new people, and still tried to have a social life.
On top of that, and especially in the last month, I was a college student with college kid problems - roommate issues. Sometimes people are great, and sometimes they aren't, and I'm not saying this was either one of those cases, but about a month ago I realized I wasn't happy anymore and I couldn't ignore it and put myself through any of it anymore.
Sometimes, you need to be selfish. And about a month ago, I was. And it made a huge difference in my mood, my anxiety, my work. Quite frankly, the last month had a better impact on my entire year than the rest of the year did.
Another reason I kind of dropped off the face of the earth was because I had some technical difficulties.
I had spoken before about how I had some Mac trouble, and I managed to get it fixed for a lump sum but I'm a college student and blogger and you do what you have to do.
This time, the same thing happened, except completely different, and it was a million times worse.
Somehow, one of my roommates managed to spill some water onto my laptop when I was out at a meeting, and my laptop - my $1,500 laptop - completely died. Every single part of my laptop was completely fried inside, and there was more than $800 worth of water damage - leaving me no other choice but to buy a brand new computer.
But I didn't let this one go.
Not this time.
I investigated and filed a report to my school's security who then launched a formal investigation, and after a little more than a week of hell and stress and investigations and meetings and emails back and forth, someone confessed and all was right in the world again.
I know this isn't an excuse. I mean, I had a functioning laptop. But dealing with roommate drama, plus this investigation, plus finals week and my never-ending anxiety wasn't exactly prime inspiration to write.
So I'm sorry. I promise I'm back.
It may take some time, but I have a lot of exciting things in store, and even more exciting news to share.
So, The Caro Diaries is coming back in full swing this summer - so wait for it, because as Barney Stinson would say, it's gonna be legen.... (wait for it, and I hope you're not lactose intolerant because the second half of this word is...) dairy. legendary.
Hope you didn't miss me while I was gone.
And if anyone here still actually follows me, hi and thank you. I promise I'll make it up to you.
Or I'll try.