December 03, 2018

Why I Took a Break from Blogging (p.s. I'M BACK!)

So, if you hadn't noticed by now, I haven't been all that active around these parts. In fact, I've only posted twice for the year... and the year's almost done. While I know I haven't been the world's best blogger for quite some time, giving up on this blog (let's be real, I totally gave up), was heartbreaking and I felt deep down in my heart that I needed to open up the backend and start writing again. But it's hard..

2018 really was like this
2018 was a rough year. I mean, I know I say that every year, but seriously, 2018 was a lot. Not in a bad way–because it definitely had its ups too–but it certainly had its downs. Whether it was feeling totally swamped at work, creatively uninspired, finding it hard to create that work/life/me balance, struggling with my mental health, or just feeling like I couldn't figure out who I was, well, it obviously didn't make for the best blogging atmosphere.

I think I graduated college and jumped into the working world so quickly, and felt like I figured life out, and then things kept throwing me. And now, a few years post-college, I'm realizing I still don't quite know who I am. Not professionally, because I feel like that's the only part of me that feels like I'm on the right path. But I just feel like I need to figure out this new me: the non-college Caroline, the non-high school Caroline, the get-over-it-you're-adulting-this-is-your-life Caroline. And it's tough, not just for me, but for anybody.


And I felt like if I was battling myself internally, how could I come online here and pretend like I had my life all together? (I don't). How could I talk about clothes or shoes or makeup when I wasn't sure who I was supposed to be? (I couldn't). How could I commit to my blog, if I can't even commit to me? (This one I definitely can't).

So I did the only thing I thought to do: I stayed away. I haven't so much as logged into my blog Instagram in months, and this was the first time I've even hit my blog icon in the last 8 months. Just typing that out is insane to me.

But what I've realized is that I'll never have it all together, no matter how much I try. I'll never be perfect. I'll never be that Instagram blogger with the perfect hair and the perfect smile and a constant new wardrobe and an office and bedroom that better belong on Pinterest. Because plain and simple, that's not me.

And if it's one thing I've learned this year: it's to be unapologetically me.

So that's what you're going to get from now on: unapologetic Caro. Because why should I be sorry for being who I am?


So, that being said, I hope you'll join me for the ride, and I hope you'll enjoy getting to know the real me – no matter what that entails.

I won't be rebranding (as yet.. though I eventually will: this design doesn't feel 'me' anymore, but I'll always remain TCD.. at least for now), and I won't be changing the types of things I blog about. But what I'll be doing is infusing more me into my posts. Real, unapologetic content. No Instagram BS, no selling dreams and telling lies. What you see is what you get. I hope you're ready, because I am!

Welcome to the newest chapter of The Caro Diaries. I hope you'll keep reading..

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9 comments:

  1. A break can give us clarity, so it's necessary sometimes. I have taken mini breaks here and there when I needed to reconnect with myself and my intentions.

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  2. I totally get it and have also taken a break from my blog in the past. Sometimes we just need a little breather to work on ourselves. Good for you!
    xoxo Elizabeth https://www.crazybusyhappylife.com

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  3. I have always thought you were just wonderful just the way you were

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  4. Sometimes taking a break from blogging for a while is the best thing for ourselves. In the end our followers will understand.

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  5. We love you just as you are. Unapologetic is how you always should have been because you are a blessing to anyone who has the joy of knowing you and having you in their life

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  6. Welcome back! Sometimes a break is necessary and helpful. I look forward to following your unapologetic self! ��

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  7. That's so brave of you to step away and realize you needed a break! I am thinking about taking a couple months break starting in January, just to recooperate from this crazy last few months. Glad youre back!

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  8. Glad to see you back. You're one of the few trini bloggers I know and I love that we are out there doing our thing. So welcome back :)

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  9. Loved the honesty and excited to read about the get-over-it-this-is-your-life now post-college life haha because i 100% feel ya

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